They Say drinking and driving is Dangerous, Crying and Driving is just as dangerous

Right now im a little sensitive and emotional.. driving with no music n all.. really got me thinking a lot.. 1. was i truly am being nice to those who doesn't deserve it. 2. My high tolerance is starting to become low, and i don't like that.. Im usually pretty good keeping it all in, and just forget. 3. To those who are in my life regardless of who exactly they are, just can't seem to just give me a break, always giving me attitude, talking with a tone that's not necessary at all. Also some how certain people think they know what runs and goes on in my life because i post on fb. Or they like to here certain things about me that isn't recent is from long ago and don't give me as who i am now a chance.. But oh well their lost. 4. Regardless friends or family.. If you can't let go the grudge of what i have done, during my stupid childhood teenage phase, then don't b in my life. Im not forcing nor anyone else for that matter. 5. I can never seem to get a break regardless if its something so small, People would bring things up of me and talk on n on about just that.. 6. The trust i have for certain people are now lost and or not their anymore.. My heart is damaged by so much, idk how much more hurt i can deal with, that my heart can deal with. 7. Certain people are picky and want to be appreciated not from the heart.. They may say that, but truthfully, some want more then just that or expecting their appreciation to b something extraordinary. For me as long, i hear you say or tell me that you are thankful for all i have done for you, and being there for you. Seeing that i am. That's all i want and want to hear.. I just want to those people to know i got them, and that they know i do and to not forget all i've done.. But yeah.. all that was going on in my head for like 15 mins while driving. Also my mother she was on my mind.. I don't like how we just go back n forth nice n then fight n being nice again.. drives me bonkers!..  While thinking of my mom, was when i cried the most.. Been for ever since I blogged about anything.. Been going through a lot and got some things i want to share with everyone.. But wont say until the perfect time.. :) BTW Happy International Women's Day to all my Ladies!!!!...

Believe in Love!

In all my relationship, I've been scared out of, cheated on, emotionally, and verbally abused. Not only that I've been destroyed, and my heart been broken in to thousands of pieces. I still maintain to keep it cool, keep it moving, look ahead. I may have stopped looking for my one half. That doesn't mean I'm giving up hope, on love. I do truly believe i will Find my other half. I'm just going to continue with my life. When that  time is right, I'll know. People seem to think walls are put up because of being scared of going through the same bs. I honestly believe in my situation i'm not scared this time. I learned from each men who came into my life, as friends, as my lover, as just for a moments passing. That i just learned, i picked up things, i can tell more and read better. I've became strong, as my heart did too. I got a better judgement on others then as if i did 5 -10 yrs ago. I'm not afraid, I don't have any insecurity, I know what i want. I know what i deserve. Some men don't understand that, yet I'm okay, because i don't care, and they seem to not care either, and over look and for see to not give credited, and over judge. As much as men think women does it, they as well do the same. To those, don't give up on love. Yet again don't give up your love so easily, that's not what i'm saying. Just know who to give your heart too. Love takes time and patience. How you know its love when its been 1 week? What a bout next week? To those who lost in love, Love will come again. You will fine love once again.. Have Faith! Love will come to you unexpectedly. Don't try so hard to look for love. Having the ideal of what a relationship has to offer is nice and wonderful. Yet are you truly ready to love, and or love again. Ask yourself that.. Well Good night everyone MWAHS!!..

                                                  Yours Truly,
                                                                 Soka!

One Year Weight Lost

Hi everyone I wished i blogged on the exact date of my One Year weight Lost Anniversary. But regardless I made it and I've done it. Starting of January 14, 2013 I told myself i wanted to have the body I used to have before i got heavy. During that time I weighed 165 lbs, Now January 14, 2014 I am now 134.5 lbs That's 30.5 lbs lost. I am so proud of myself, I never thought I would actually achieve my new years resolution. Here is a picture of my transformation. As of my new, New Year resolution for 2014, I plan to lose another 10 lbs by summer. Also to get toned. I've never felt so great about myself in a very long time.. I was one of those people who kept telling themselves i want to look like that person and or how i used to look. Tried, then gave up and just got lazy, and gained even more. Thinking its hopeless now. I struggled so much, yet here I am happy. 30.5 lbs down. and 10 more to go. If a person who has been so negative minded like me, could some how switch that negative thoughts and turned it into positive and very motivated. You also, can do it as well. I'm no Actress, a professional weight lost guru, or anything. I'm just some girl from a small city in PA.

Why Be The "Good Enough"?

Some girls are down to be some guys "good enough". Never should any female and or even males b someones "good enough". They gotta be "The Best" "The One" "The Right One". Because if you accept to be someones good enough, that's all you'll ever be. Until they find their "The One" "The Best" "The right one". That will leave you with nothing.. Why would you want to do that to your self? Don't be the settle for less, Be the settled for The BEST!!!. Think twice before putting yourself in a hurting position. Sometime i can never understand why people put themselves in that situation, like is it because you give up, you don't care, or you just don't have that much respect for yourself. I wonder all the time why people do that to themselves. I shouldn't really care, but honestly i kind of do. Some days i would just want to run up to a person and ask, yet don't want to be such an ass about it making them feel some type of way, which they probably already do. Don't you wonder that some times. Or if you fit the shoe, Have you ever asked yourself that question, and aren't you curious as well to why the heck you do that to yourself. When you know you deserve to be someones best, the greatest thing that ever happen to the other person. Then again, we all question ourselves and of other of the things we and or they do. 

Successful Women Over Non Successful Women

I have some friends who isn't on the right track in their life. I'm 21 and i got a good job, and my freelance business is going wonderfully well. Even though I'm still dependent at the moment, I'm working on saving and becoming more independent. More responsible money wise, trying to pay things on time, get rid of debt and build on my credit. Then here i go talking about a few girls I know my age some a little younger, and some a little older. They are always in a mess, jobs after jobs, failing in school, quitting. Yet they complain about the life they are in right now. -_- They love going out, partying, and messing around with guys who spoil them rotten like some sugar daddy. Some of those guys are actually a gentlemen, yet they messing with girls like the ones i'm describing. Who doesn't have their head on right, no guidelines to their future. Yet these guys, want to "Wife them". Well some of them anyways. Also crazy thing is some of these attractive men, who does have their heads together, seem to be terrified of me and many women just like me. Who is getting their life together, reaching for our long term goals. Like why aren't we being attracted, yet we attracted the bums, the losers, the scrub, the low lives. Eh! i'll never understand. We're young, beautiful, head on strong and high. We reaching towards our goal, busting our asses off. Yet we can't seem to even grab the attention of a fine looking gentleman who is also just like us. Succeeding, becoming something we hoped and want to be. The cycle of this Universe i swear lolz. Sometimes i wonder, if its because they don't want a woman who is just like them. Does it make them feel like less of a man, cause a girl can hold it down for our own self or what? I tend to always think about this all the time. Do they want a chick who is hopeless, so the man can feel like a man do be able to feel needed and wanted? I have no clue. Im curious though. All i know is, as i am accomplishing and achieving my goals. I would love a man who isn't afraid of me, because of my success, and that he would b attracted, and want partner who is on his level. Strong, powerful, head strong, head high, achiever, and etc.

Music is My Life!

You know what sucks, trying to come out with the right words, of how you exactly feel towards things and or person. You just can't seem to think it right or even say it correctly. Yet when it comes to a song that comes up its telling you, your whole life story of that moment you wish you could have said yourself or do. Yet the music speaks for you. I always tend to listen to music that happens to just be music that is to what i am going through or feeling. Yet i myself can't explain as well as the song. This is why i love music, it explains things for me easier to my situation or to a person. Also certain songs makes me think of the world in a whole new way. See things in different perspective. That's why sometime people can't help, but dedicate a song to someone or listen to music. Because at the moment its how they are feeling and or going through. I love how music in just only 3 4 mins can explain everything. Music, well i should say the lyrics, come from within deep of a person; who's going through certain things and or feeling a certain way. They are trying to express it in a short matter. Like in a poem, I used to write poems all the time. I sorta turned some of them into a song. I'm no song writer, but i can see how writing things down and or finding the right tune can some how create a wonderful masterpiece. Music is my life. People don't kid when they say that. Sound dramatic, but its kinda true. Music do speak!.. regardless if its a message, a moment thing, feelings, etc. Well Happy Thursday everyone been awhile since i blogged about something. My life is starting to fall into place. I can't wait to share it with you all. :) MWAHS!!!!...

- Love from,

               This Pretty Little Asian: Soka!.

Do you believe in the Magic?

Have you ever believed that some things happen for a reason, and people come back into your life for a purpose. Do you believe that fate does takes its place with two people? Do you believe that someone who you randomly think of time to time, & when you think of them more than often. Magically appears, a miracle? I don't know, but im so blessed and grateful for the person who magically appeared back into my life. Its funny, because that same person is the person I would bring up in conversation to if i would ever be with that person again. This one person always in and out of my life, yet every time i keep falling for that person all over again. Idk why, but i hope that person gives me the chance to answer that. Hoping that the "things happen for a reason", miracles, and fate is to us being as one. Which by the way, I'm not saying that person is the one and that I'm in love. Cause i'm not and not so sure what that person will be to me. What I'm trying to say, are we somehow meant to try things again. Are we meant to give it another try. Who knows! Well for the time being, I'm still doing me and that person is doing them. I wouldn't want what we have to be ruined. If things are meant to be it'll happen before our eyes.. One step and thing at a time though. This girl still got many things in her life she wanna do before anything. As so does that person :) If anything, i'll just let fate, miracle and all do its work.