Successful Women Over Non Successful Women

I have some friends who isn't on the right track in their life. I'm 21 and i got a good job, and my freelance business is going wonderfully well. Even though I'm still dependent at the moment, I'm working on saving and becoming more independent. More responsible money wise, trying to pay things on time, get rid of debt and build on my credit. Then here i go talking about a few girls I know my age some a little younger, and some a little older. They are always in a mess, jobs after jobs, failing in school, quitting. Yet they complain about the life they are in right now. -_- They love going out, partying, and messing around with guys who spoil them rotten like some sugar daddy. Some of those guys are actually a gentlemen, yet they messing with girls like the ones i'm describing. Who doesn't have their head on right, no guidelines to their future. Yet these guys, want to "Wife them". Well some of them anyways. Also crazy thing is some of these attractive men, who does have their heads together, seem to be terrified of me and many women just like me. Who is getting their life together, reaching for our long term goals. Like why aren't we being attracted, yet we attracted the bums, the losers, the scrub, the low lives. Eh! i'll never understand. We're young, beautiful, head on strong and high. We reaching towards our goal, busting our asses off. Yet we can't seem to even grab the attention of a fine looking gentleman who is also just like us. Succeeding, becoming something we hoped and want to be. The cycle of this Universe i swear lolz. Sometimes i wonder, if its because they don't want a woman who is just like them. Does it make them feel like less of a man, cause a girl can hold it down for our own self or what? I tend to always think about this all the time. Do they want a chick who is hopeless, so the man can feel like a man do be able to feel needed and wanted? I have no clue. Im curious though. All i know is, as i am accomplishing and achieving my goals. I would love a man who isn't afraid of me, because of my success, and that he would b attracted, and want partner who is on his level. Strong, powerful, head strong, head high, achiever, and etc.

Music is My Life!

You know what sucks, trying to come out with the right words, of how you exactly feel towards things and or person. You just can't seem to think it right or even say it correctly. Yet when it comes to a song that comes up its telling you, your whole life story of that moment you wish you could have said yourself or do. Yet the music speaks for you. I always tend to listen to music that happens to just be music that is to what i am going through or feeling. Yet i myself can't explain as well as the song. This is why i love music, it explains things for me easier to my situation or to a person. Also certain songs makes me think of the world in a whole new way. See things in different perspective. That's why sometime people can't help, but dedicate a song to someone or listen to music. Because at the moment its how they are feeling and or going through. I love how music in just only 3 4 mins can explain everything. Music, well i should say the lyrics, come from within deep of a person; who's going through certain things and or feeling a certain way. They are trying to express it in a short matter. Like in a poem, I used to write poems all the time. I sorta turned some of them into a song. I'm no song writer, but i can see how writing things down and or finding the right tune can some how create a wonderful masterpiece. Music is my life. People don't kid when they say that. Sound dramatic, but its kinda true. Music do speak!.. regardless if its a message, a moment thing, feelings, etc. Well Happy Thursday everyone been awhile since i blogged about something. My life is starting to fall into place. I can't wait to share it with you all. :) MWAHS!!!!...

- Love from,

               This Pretty Little Asian: Soka!.

Do you believe in the Magic?

Have you ever believed that some things happen for a reason, and people come back into your life for a purpose. Do you believe that fate does takes its place with two people? Do you believe that someone who you randomly think of time to time, & when you think of them more than often. Magically appears, a miracle? I don't know, but im so blessed and grateful for the person who magically appeared back into my life. Its funny, because that same person is the person I would bring up in conversation to if i would ever be with that person again. This one person always in and out of my life, yet every time i keep falling for that person all over again. Idk why, but i hope that person gives me the chance to answer that. Hoping that the "things happen for a reason", miracles, and fate is to us being as one. Which by the way, I'm not saying that person is the one and that I'm in love. Cause i'm not and not so sure what that person will be to me. What I'm trying to say, are we somehow meant to try things again. Are we meant to give it another try. Who knows! Well for the time being, I'm still doing me and that person is doing them. I wouldn't want what we have to be ruined. If things are meant to be it'll happen before our eyes.. One step and thing at a time though. This girl still got many things in her life she wanna do before anything. As so does that person :) If anything, i'll just let fate, miracle and all do its work.

Upgrade!

Upgrade for what?

People say I need an upgrade?

" What more do i need to upgrade then my attitude, my personality, my heart, and set of mind"?

That's when you hear crickets, material things are fine to have, but thats not want i need. Not saying i don't want, i just don't need to at the moment need an upgrade. Until necessary. People forever getting the freshest newest, sneaks, cloth, phones, games, and etc. Im pretty content to what i have. Yeah i want some things other people have, but i brush it off, and move on and forget. If its one thing i get that's the freshest and finest.. ha.. that'll be food.. lolz.. I do have wish list of course, but one item at a time, when I can take one off the list. Sometimes I look at my list and have 10 items i want, I ended up only 2 or 3 from the 10. Im a girl, i have my moments, but i'm patient and always end up realizing more than half the things i wanted, i don't even want no more. Because in all honesty it was never that important. Hoping to keep it up, so i can save. Unless it comes to food lolz I can't resist.. 

Selfness, Pleasing, Acceptance

I do and say things, because i don't want any regrets in the future. I don't want to have to think about what if, if only, and so forth. Can't live life like that. As i progress to the person i am slowly becoming, I intend to keep doing what i do, open up more and confess to w.e my mind and heart desire. Life gets you unexpectedly. So why not live everyday as if there is no tomorrow. Whether or not people will get offended or upset, sad, happy, excited, and or w.e it is they will feel. How can you disappoint, when things in peoples life already done all those, how bad can you just confronting to w.e you gotta say and do be any worse. Especially if all people desire nothing but the truth, honesty, loyalty, and no secrets kept from them. Especially if they are the topic of it all. I just don't want to hold back anymore from anything or anyone. I could have never do that to people, be straightforward, because all i could think of is "I don't want to hurt that person, nor what them hating me". Well now, i'm changing that mindset of mines and my heart. I want people to know me foreal as who i truly am and want to really want to show me. I want to be accepted being all that i am regardless how i come upon people. Only to be respected, for who i am, not for half of what i am, but all i am. Its tough though, you know?! People ask for all that loyalty, honesty, and being all straightforwardness. Yet they lack to take all that in, and accepting all that people are giving them what they ask for. People are the hardest thing in the world to ever be pleased; no wait only to those who have the understanding of it all, are hard to be pleased. Why can't we all be pleased saying we want something and when we have it, and be okay with it and not be angery. We people as a human race are so complicated, even the simple people can be complicated. As much scientist and other smart ass out there, will never find the answer, in books, and studies and so forth for the answer. All I know is I can't please everyone, even though i want too. The person I should only be pleasing, is myself, im a liar to myself if i can't, and makes me a liar to everyone else. Huys the struggles of pleasing, and selfness. That's life for ya, aye!?

L.O.V.E.!

L.O.V.E.!

I want someone to love me not because of the mask makeup i wear, but the beautiful me behind the pretty and beautiful mask. Also not by my first impression, but for what they do know about me. Willing to continue to a journey with me and falls in love, knowing exactly what they are getting themselves into. Because as i get old, i wont be beautiful. If he becomes blind his heart will not. Looking with the eyes is wonderful. Though its not as wonderful and special when looking with the heart. Love is from the heart, and not the eyes. Love is rare, yet people seem to assume love isn't rare, and can easily be found. Love is not a toy you can meddle around with. Love is precious, love is the strongest power. So handle it with care. If you can't handle love, relationship will fall. Just know Love isn't reckless, the person was reckless, not being able to handle the power of love. Love is beautiful and powerful in any relationship, whether its the love for friends, family, strangers even, your pets. Everyone and animals need some love to their day, and to their heart.

Photoshoot October, 9th 2013 with Photographer Ryan Hardy

Hey everyone so Finally I got to see my photos. They came out great already posted two of them for 2 of my blog post I recently did. I've seen a few of his work from before and to now, he has grown in his skills and work. If anyone is interested getting their photos done, wedding, prom, senior photos, and or to build up your portfolio I will put a link of his FB pg. Below!. Any questions please feel free to ask him. As for myself as a new upcoming model. I will be determined to become better and work on things that I lack, to the very best of me. I've done some photoshoots before, but that was before considering to actually becoming a model. I hope this career takes me far, as among many other things as well.. Have a great Sunday!..

All photos were taken at Downtown Lancaster, PA.

Photo taken at Binns Park located in Lancaster City.

Taken right in the center of Downtown Lancaster, PA Right across from the Beautiful Marriott Hotel 

Just chilling laying on the bench at Central Market in downtown, while the wind is blowing my hair, like as if I'm in some tv commercial lolz

Binns Park

This happens to me my most favorite picture of myself in front of the Central Market. Ryan takes pride in his work, but had an uh oh when capturing this photo of me. Didn't set the camera to focus on me, and i was soft. Didn't want this up, I completely understand, even though.This photo came out amazing to me, and so does other who have seen this photo. I love it. 

Here is the Link to Ryan Hardy pg.

Ryan Hardy FB