Successful Women Over Non Successful Women

I have some friends who isn't on the right track in their life. I'm 21 and i got a good job, and my freelance business is going wonderfully well. Even though I'm still dependent at the moment, I'm working on saving and becoming more independent. More responsible money wise, trying to pay things on time, get rid of debt and build on my credit. Then here i go talking about a few girls I know my age some a little younger, and some a little older. They are always in a mess, jobs after jobs, failing in school, quitting. Yet they complain about the life they are in right now. -_- They love going out, partying, and messing around with guys who spoil them rotten like some sugar daddy. Some of those guys are actually a gentlemen, yet they messing with girls like the ones i'm describing. Who doesn't have their head on right, no guidelines to their future. Yet these guys, want to "Wife them". Well some of them anyways. Also crazy thing is some of these attractive men, who does have their heads together, seem to be terrified of me and many women just like me. Who is getting their life together, reaching for our long term goals. Like why aren't we being attracted, yet we attracted the bums, the losers, the scrub, the low lives. Eh! i'll never understand. We're young, beautiful, head on strong and high. We reaching towards our goal, busting our asses off. Yet we can't seem to even grab the attention of a fine looking gentleman who is also just like us. Succeeding, becoming something we hoped and want to be. The cycle of this Universe i swear lolz. Sometimes i wonder, if its because they don't want a woman who is just like them. Does it make them feel like less of a man, cause a girl can hold it down for our own self or what? I tend to always think about this all the time. Do they want a chick who is hopeless, so the man can feel like a man do be able to feel needed and wanted? I have no clue. Im curious though. All i know is, as i am accomplishing and achieving my goals. I would love a man who isn't afraid of me, because of my success, and that he would b attracted, and want partner who is on his level. Strong, powerful, head strong, head high, achiever, and etc.

Music is My Life!

You know what sucks, trying to come out with the right words, of how you exactly feel towards things and or person. You just can't seem to think it right or even say it correctly. Yet when it comes to a song that comes up its telling you, your whole life story of that moment you wish you could have said yourself or do. Yet the music speaks for you. I always tend to listen to music that happens to just be music that is to what i am going through or feeling. Yet i myself can't explain as well as the song. This is why i love music, it explains things for me easier to my situation or to a person. Also certain songs makes me think of the world in a whole new way. See things in different perspective. That's why sometime people can't help, but dedicate a song to someone or listen to music. Because at the moment its how they are feeling and or going through. I love how music in just only 3 4 mins can explain everything. Music, well i should say the lyrics, come from within deep of a person; who's going through certain things and or feeling a certain way. They are trying to express it in a short matter. Like in a poem, I used to write poems all the time. I sorta turned some of them into a song. I'm no song writer, but i can see how writing things down and or finding the right tune can some how create a wonderful masterpiece. Music is my life. People don't kid when they say that. Sound dramatic, but its kinda true. Music do speak!.. regardless if its a message, a moment thing, feelings, etc. Well Happy Thursday everyone been awhile since i blogged about something. My life is starting to fall into place. I can't wait to share it with you all. :) MWAHS!!!!...

- Love from,

               This Pretty Little Asian: Soka!.

Do you believe in the Magic?

Have you ever believed that some things happen for a reason, and people come back into your life for a purpose. Do you believe that fate does takes its place with two people? Do you believe that someone who you randomly think of time to time, & when you think of them more than often. Magically appears, a miracle? I don't know, but im so blessed and grateful for the person who magically appeared back into my life. Its funny, because that same person is the person I would bring up in conversation to if i would ever be with that person again. This one person always in and out of my life, yet every time i keep falling for that person all over again. Idk why, but i hope that person gives me the chance to answer that. Hoping that the "things happen for a reason", miracles, and fate is to us being as one. Which by the way, I'm not saying that person is the one and that I'm in love. Cause i'm not and not so sure what that person will be to me. What I'm trying to say, are we somehow meant to try things again. Are we meant to give it another try. Who knows! Well for the time being, I'm still doing me and that person is doing them. I wouldn't want what we have to be ruined. If things are meant to be it'll happen before our eyes.. One step and thing at a time though. This girl still got many things in her life she wanna do before anything. As so does that person :) If anything, i'll just let fate, miracle and all do its work.

Upgrade!

Upgrade for what?

People say I need an upgrade?

" What more do i need to upgrade then my attitude, my personality, my heart, and set of mind"?

That's when you hear crickets, material things are fine to have, but thats not want i need. Not saying i don't want, i just don't need to at the moment need an upgrade. Until necessary. People forever getting the freshest newest, sneaks, cloth, phones, games, and etc. Im pretty content to what i have. Yeah i want some things other people have, but i brush it off, and move on and forget. If its one thing i get that's the freshest and finest.. ha.. that'll be food.. lolz.. I do have wish list of course, but one item at a time, when I can take one off the list. Sometimes I look at my list and have 10 items i want, I ended up only 2 or 3 from the 10. Im a girl, i have my moments, but i'm patient and always end up realizing more than half the things i wanted, i don't even want no more. Because in all honesty it was never that important. Hoping to keep it up, so i can save. Unless it comes to food lolz I can't resist.. 

Selfness, Pleasing, Acceptance

I do and say things, because i don't want any regrets in the future. I don't want to have to think about what if, if only, and so forth. Can't live life like that. As i progress to the person i am slowly becoming, I intend to keep doing what i do, open up more and confess to w.e my mind and heart desire. Life gets you unexpectedly. So why not live everyday as if there is no tomorrow. Whether or not people will get offended or upset, sad, happy, excited, and or w.e it is they will feel. How can you disappoint, when things in peoples life already done all those, how bad can you just confronting to w.e you gotta say and do be any worse. Especially if all people desire nothing but the truth, honesty, loyalty, and no secrets kept from them. Especially if they are the topic of it all. I just don't want to hold back anymore from anything or anyone. I could have never do that to people, be straightforward, because all i could think of is "I don't want to hurt that person, nor what them hating me". Well now, i'm changing that mindset of mines and my heart. I want people to know me foreal as who i truly am and want to really want to show me. I want to be accepted being all that i am regardless how i come upon people. Only to be respected, for who i am, not for half of what i am, but all i am. Its tough though, you know?! People ask for all that loyalty, honesty, and being all straightforwardness. Yet they lack to take all that in, and accepting all that people are giving them what they ask for. People are the hardest thing in the world to ever be pleased; no wait only to those who have the understanding of it all, are hard to be pleased. Why can't we all be pleased saying we want something and when we have it, and be okay with it and not be angery. We people as a human race are so complicated, even the simple people can be complicated. As much scientist and other smart ass out there, will never find the answer, in books, and studies and so forth for the answer. All I know is I can't please everyone, even though i want too. The person I should only be pleasing, is myself, im a liar to myself if i can't, and makes me a liar to everyone else. Huys the struggles of pleasing, and selfness. That's life for ya, aye!?

L.O.V.E.!

L.O.V.E.!

I want someone to love me not because of the mask makeup i wear, but the beautiful me behind the pretty and beautiful mask. Also not by my first impression, but for what they do know about me. Willing to continue to a journey with me and falls in love, knowing exactly what they are getting themselves into. Because as i get old, i wont be beautiful. If he becomes blind his heart will not. Looking with the eyes is wonderful. Though its not as wonderful and special when looking with the heart. Love is from the heart, and not the eyes. Love is rare, yet people seem to assume love isn't rare, and can easily be found. Love is not a toy you can meddle around with. Love is precious, love is the strongest power. So handle it with care. If you can't handle love, relationship will fall. Just know Love isn't reckless, the person was reckless, not being able to handle the power of love. Love is beautiful and powerful in any relationship, whether its the love for friends, family, strangers even, your pets. Everyone and animals need some love to their day, and to their heart.

Photoshoot October, 9th 2013 with Photographer Ryan Hardy

Hey everyone so Finally I got to see my photos. They came out great already posted two of them for 2 of my blog post I recently did. I've seen a few of his work from before and to now, he has grown in his skills and work. If anyone is interested getting their photos done, wedding, prom, senior photos, and or to build up your portfolio I will put a link of his FB pg. Below!. Any questions please feel free to ask him. As for myself as a new upcoming model. I will be determined to become better and work on things that I lack, to the very best of me. I've done some photoshoots before, but that was before considering to actually becoming a model. I hope this career takes me far, as among many other things as well.. Have a great Sunday!..

All photos were taken at Downtown Lancaster, PA.

Photo taken at Binns Park located in Lancaster City.

Taken right in the center of Downtown Lancaster, PA Right across from the Beautiful Marriott Hotel 

Just chilling laying on the bench at Central Market in downtown, while the wind is blowing my hair, like as if I'm in some tv commercial lolz

Binns Park

This happens to me my most favorite picture of myself in front of the Central Market. Ryan takes pride in his work, but had an uh oh when capturing this photo of me. Didn't set the camera to focus on me, and i was soft. Didn't want this up, I completely understand, even though.This photo came out amazing to me, and so does other who have seen this photo. I love it. 

Here is the Link to Ryan Hardy pg.

Ryan Hardy FB

Teamwork Makes the Dreamwork!

When you're ready, i'll be right here waiting. Im not going to go anywhere. Even if I'm in the middle of running my life together. Just know i'll be even better knowing you decided to run along side with me, as I would with you. Sometimes its better in pairs, when both have hopes and dreams to lead. That you would have support and a backbone, at any given time. In relationships, people tend to not do that for one another. To comfy just sitting around doing what couples typically do. When i rather have a relationship, where my man is going to support me, push me, be there for me when it comes to me going forward with whatever it is, I'm going for, as so vise versa. Relationship is also a team effort, support, guidance, even coaching has some part in it. I know everyone has a dream, has goals they want to accomplish. Yet they say when in a relationship, that sort of stops a person. I don't want to stop anyone from reaching for what they want to go for. My man can go and chase for what he is dedicated to chasing to be successful and happy. Be nice if he does want me involved and be there to help, support, and cheer him on. I don't mind it at all, don't want him thinking like "Oh man i don't want to have to drag my girl everywhere, she might not want to, or is going to be uninterested and etc". No, I'll be more than happy to come along and it not being such a drag. As i expect the same, when its my time. Yeah.. its a fantasy, some may say its never a beautiful picture as you are saying it and thinking about it. Yeah that maybe so, there are gonna be some hard times. Thats what teamwork is all about and support. Also to have a well good understanding of each other. Before putting yourself in that situation, just be sure you can handle it. remember, you are also trying to get to where you want to be as well. Gonna take some time, a lot of patience. You really just got to work together, and hope for the best for both, and that eventually everything will fall into place. To be able to enjoy everything, you gotta go through sweat, pain, tears, and heartaches. At the end you can say "It was all worth it". You got your life going, your partner got his/her life going, and yet both are together loving each other and are as happy as can be. Hoping for the best. Love each other, if truly do love. I honestly can say as a personal experience though, To truly have that and want that, you have to believe in that person and what they are going for and vise versa of course. For it all to work out.

Don't Give Up!

So many people in the world give up on the most amazing thing that could possibly happen to them. Love for instant. Just because you've been in love once and it failed, doesn't mean you can't love again and again. Until you found your soulmate. Never give up on love, even if it may seem you are walking a lonely road. You won't, someone won't let that happen to you, because they don't want that for themselves. Work, careers, future, are the next big thing people give up on. People hate working, because they never went and chased their dreams, and or career. You can work and still try to get a career you been wanting to be in. Its going to take dedication, sweat, and hard labor. Nothing in life will come easy financially wise. You want to be rich or have money that you wont have to worry about becoming broke. Bust your ass off to get to that. Do everything you can, even when it seems like there maybe, be no hopes after all. There are hopes, just don't give up. Millionaires, and Billionaires never did. How else they became so damn rich. Also just be glad you got a roof over your head, cloths on your body, and food on the table. Also the fact you even have a job, to pay things that are needed. Some people struggle to get jobs because of health issues, backgrounds, and no experience. People will turn you down. They may say they don't discriminate, they actually do, but try to be low key about it. If so they do find jobs it was a struggle for them, but you got a clean background, no health issues, and have some experience. Why do you feel like you need to give up, when they didn't. Next topic, now a days i see parents abusing kids, killing their kids starving them. Because they say they can't take care of their kids, they don't want to, they are lazy, they are better off without one. My heart cries for babies and kids who have unfit parents. They shouldn't give up either, if parenting isn't for them they should have never had unprotected sex or use plan b. If not give their kids up for adoption. Its not giving up really, but a better choice. Doing everything they can so that their kids could have a better life, with better fit parents. We including me, given up on something so simple, that could be fixed or simply be answered, yet we don't cause I honestly will say, we learn more to give up quicker then not giving up, because it was that easy for us, and move on. That only made it more difficult for us in the long run. Im trying so hard not to give up now, after everything thrown in my life has put me though. Why should I now and anyways? Im young, have so much energy, so much life in me. I need to do something with all of it. So should you, and anyone else who think to give up. DON'T!!!!! I see people with disease, cancer, and disorder who never gave up, and fought to the very end. When even though it seems like there are no hopes and future for them. They end up proving everybody wrong. They prayed, have loved once who prayed for them, they got heart for life. Even though sometime cancer, and the disease, have beaten some of them, the one thing they never did, was give up, lived life, not knowing how long they got to live. We of all people should be doing that ourselves.

PROGRESS, TIME, PATIENCE

To all my dearest friends, bloggers, viewers, etc... who are trying to get into the entertainment business and who already are, keep doing your thing, don't take the negativism, as a sign as to you failing. Take that and turn it into inspirations, to keep doing better. But wait a minute, don't mix up hatred over a misunderstanding over criticism. Those two things are a BIG difference. You're going to have liars who will not confront you truthfully, and that maybe a setback into your dreams and future, if you tend to believe in those people. Yes they will put a front, either because they want to see you fail, and or because they just can't be honest and don't want to hurt your feelings. You need those who will be blunt to you, that's the only way you can possibly go far. Those are the people who want you to succeed, and do everything in your powers to fix yourself, to progress in your work. Everything will take some time, but its up to you if you're willing to be patient to get to where you need to be, and want to be. Don't lose focus on what you strive for, don't let it become a blur. Make it clear, see it, and don't ever lose the sight of it, and but not least hold on to it tight. This message goes for anybody who strives for success, who has dreams and a future drawn into their notebooks, and is wanting that to be reality. Good Morning and Happy Tuesday!.

                                                                             Many Love From,
                                                                                               - Your Pretty Little Asian; Soka! MWAHS!!!!!!!
                                                       

Why Y0u Wr1t3 L1k3 Dat Foh?

The way some people write on social networks and text.. Im just looking at them like O_o :/ :? :| -_-  _-_ ?_? >_< WHAT???!!!!!! & have to go through Urban dictionary and or having to reread it 2+ times. Its always a guessing game at first, until the game fails miserably. Then that's when i'll be like what did you say? Can you rephrase that for me? Or could you write in a better format?When that doesn't work I just give up and not even reply back.. lolz.. Also to make it more difficult, they would make up new slangs, lingo w.e you want to call it and make up new abbreviations, as well. Like come one its 2013 almost '14. What are you trying to prove, being different? You want to be unique or something? Do you really have to type and text, everything out on how you exactly talk? Then there are some people who just doesn't make any sense period. Like they missed a few words, and don't even bother to fix it. You do gotta choice to edited them, and or at least type or text back with what you mean after realizing what you wrote didn't make any sense and unclear with the * at the end. Man, just like my cousin said. Waste of tax dollar on education for some of these people. I hope when they are in a professional field or environment  that they know how to write properly. I mean im no Mrs. Perfect when it comes to my sentence either and grammars are off. At least people can read what im saying, and not have a difficulty of trying to understand me, not having to search up Urban Dictionary or other web source to try and translate. Well thats all my ranting for now.. Time for bed, super sleepy. Good not all Sweet Dreams to another day to come. The Weekend!!! oh yeah!!!!.. 

                                             Many loves from Yours Truly,
                                                                                 Little Pretty Asian- Soka

My Heart Knows what it wants, but Knows better as well.

Its like 12:30 in the morning, can't fall back to sleep after my extended two hour nap. Im just up thinking about so much things, and the music on my "New Edition" radio playlist, which by the way my phone is a windows and doesn't have pandora, even though i've always known and had Slacker Radio. I actually love Slacker Radio though, both the same pretty much. Well anyways, oh man it's crazy how the table turns on you. I've been on a few dates and just hang out with, with a group of people, and which none i actually really liked, like liked liked. Yet they all seem to like me, and want more then being "friends". After I have already told them I don't really want to be in a relationship, Im not really looking for anything or anyone, its so hard trying to get it to these guys head. Its like they can't take a no or something, ugh guys. But one guy FREAK'N ONE GUY, got to me and I really like him, Im not so sure how he feels about me, I honestly don't know, I kind of get mixed signals. With every guy who came across me, never really stood out, never really kept me interested, and plus i have a thing about local guys. I tried dating some and only one i would actually considered, would try staying with, but its to late for that, and im truly happy for that person and where he is. That girl truly is blessed. Well anyways back to the point. We both agreed that we just not ready to be in a relationship, he has a hectic life, and I just came out of a long term relationship. Yet every day we would talk and text each other, well almost sometime every other or two. Then when things sort of cooled down, I sorta lost a bit of interest, then he goes and does or say something and that would make my day. Making me like him again. LIKE WTF!!!!... ugh!!!.. I can't help, but wanting to be with him and see where we could go, then again another part of me is saying, just stay friends im not ready, i got a long way to go, got plans ahead of me, my future, and so on. I know I don't want to be in a relationship right now, though I do miss that relationship bond, like hugging, cuddling, going out, holding hands, those sorts of things. I guess the truth is.. I like the ideas of a relationship, but thats not what I need right now. I want to accomplish my goals, be set. So when the time is right, I'd be ready to be in a relationship again. Im freak'n 21 crying out loud. I got lots of time for a relationship. I just hope he does stay in my life even if it just turns out to just being friends. He is an incredible person, and the fact he isn't local HELLO, maybe thats another reason why i like him much more. Sike Im kidding there is more then just that on why I actually like him and why he stand out. He so ambitious, charming, funny, smart, caring, very lovable, and very loved by many, head on right, head on strong, very positive, and strive for the best and goes for what he believes in. I love that about him, very hot, and he's tall and gorgeous , with a wonderful smile.. Ohhh goshh!!!... My heart want to give him everything, yet it knows better to respect anothers heart and wishes.. I never really understood anything im talking about now, when i was younger. Now i do, sucks growing up sorta. Well im done speaking my heart and mind out. I think Im ready for bed. Good night everyone sweet dreams. Mwahs from your's truly, Pretty Little Asian- Soka!.

A Cup Of Tea

As hard as it may seem, but just know there are some good people out there and who will walk into your life. Don't give up on the good, and expect nothing but the bad. Or else that is all you will b receiving. Honestly how can you want something good in life, yet your so scared of the fear of having something bad. Ying and yang, you can't run away from the bad, the good things in life will come to you, and balance with the bad. Its life, you can't always expect everything to come at you so easily like a cup of tea, and get the better things, without having to deal with some worse of things. That's just how it is. Life isn't fair, but doesn't mean it stops you from having anything good. Well Have a Thriller Thursday until next time.. Many love from your pretty little Asian, Soka MWAHS!!! Take care everyone.. 

By the way. The trees behind my house is absolutely gorgeous.. One of the few things I love about the Fall season.

Sometimes looking at views like this, I already have some of the Finer things in life. ^_^

What does insecurity got to do with it?

I never really had insecurities. Its just that in this day and age, some people make it really difficult to be really trusted. I mean come on can you fully trust someone in a manner of a yr. Some of us don't have any insecurity and low self esteem. Its the matter of fact that people in this world lie so much, and have many tricks. Plus love doesn't all happen over night. I have seen so many people fall in and out of "love" many times while I was in that 5 years relationship. I have seen some people I personally know running games, playing n messing around with good peoples heart. I can really care less or have the needs to ask for the password or snoop into a spouse things, I'd rather have him come to me honestly and openly without the pressure of me saying so. If he does then he is truly genuine. You can't force trust, force for love to happen from your spouse, for you. Cause during the mean time your spouse is going to have doubts about you questions and concerns. Its called being human, insecurity has nothing to do with it. Its all about getting to know you, your actions committing to things you tell your spouse. Pretty much all about your action basically, is what I'm saying. Also the fact who cares if you say your not like the rest. We have to determine that on our own. It truly isn't about insecurity well to me and others who relates, its all about the time and building up to get to that trust for you. If you done something wrong while being in that relationship with your spouse, you really think they can just get over it just like that. Surprisingly lucky enough, that they are even with you to give you another shot. But the shot of trusting you again wont be so easily. Thats your fault, you can't blame your spouse for your actions, then expect everything to be the way they were before.

Good Morning to Hopes, Dreams, Success, & Accomplishments

OMG I can't believe Im up. well I was awake earlier. :) But still, though I am yawning a lot right about now. Its absolutely gorgeous out.. I need to get myself some new sports bra, so I can start jogging again. Ugh! I think I lost some of my booty!!! Ooohhhh Nooo, that must never happen. DANG!... So yea some workout are in order for me right now. Still got this bingo wings yuk! gotta some arm workout as well as abs too. I want to look good for summer of 2014. Plus this really amazing guy im talking to, is starting to workout again. But he already looks gorgeous, but he sure isn't physically there with his body lolz. Awe!.. Neither am I so yeah.. By the way my headache is almost gone, I can still feel it just a bit. So I will be taking it easy again today. My well being is definitely important, this small town girl got some big dreams to accomplish. Actually the guy that i am talking to, he sort of have been inspiring me, keeping my head up and go catch my dreams. This guy, he's so different from most guys I ever met. He's all about succeeding, accomplishing things, getting things done, though he is lagging a bit on certain things, but don't we all ^_^ Well anyways. I'm truly grateful to have someone like him, just in general in my life. I don't really have much friends and what not, who are like that. Except those who are trying to get into the entertainment world, yet some bad side of them they are broke, and some are lazy, all about the sex, and parties. Not my cup of tea. All I have to say to all those who are going somewhere, and doing big things, or are even in the process. Keep at it, keep it up. if there is no one to encourage you, encourage yourself, cause that's who going to be with you at all times. Even when your journey has a bump in the road, or something might have stopped you for a little. Never let that dream of yours go and continue to it as soon as you get right back up on your feet. Some people are to comfortable working minimum jobs, factory jobs, settling down, married, kids, and haven't even tried to go after their dreams. Im not saying thats a bad thing, especially if they truly are happy with that life. Im just saying that's not me, I don't want that life just yet. When i was in a relationship, yeah all i wanted was a comfy life i'll admit, like my friends and family. Then when I see my other friends succeeding traveling, and getting things they want. Oh man I snapped out and was like I want that life before settling into anything. I want to chase my dreams and accomplish it. Make a good living, so one day I can give it all to my kids. Not having to over work myself as Im aging. Well anyways have a Terrific Tuesday everyone mwahs!!!!!..  Remember dreams don't die, and success never stops. Its up to you on what you want to do, and go with your life.

My NYX Products Review/First impression

First I just want to say that I love the fact all of the NYX product that I have purchased are Cruelty Free & the Color Lip Balm and Matte Lipstick are Hypoallergenic.


...:: Color Lip Balm::...
OMG I love this color lip balm, truly does keep you lips moist, after trying on the lip stick. That it dried up my lips, I tried the lip balm after and it kept it moist my lips from drying up. I decided to go for a neutral nude tone, cause as much as i love to have some color on my lips, im a simple gal. Plus neutral nude color goes with everything. So yes i do recommend this product all the way, especially if your lips does chap up quickly during this kind of weather. Also it smell really amazing. Each smell is different. But they all smell like a fruit, and me i love the sweet smell of fruits. :)

CLB07 Spasibo $3.09

Swatch 

...::Matte Lipstick::...
Besides the fact I absolutely love the color, it did stay on for quit awhile i have to say 4 hrs. before it completely came off. Not so bad you would say after eating and drinking water. Also it was moist I will say that, but ended up drying my lips after awhile. I don't know if it could just be the weather, since my lips tend to try quicker during the cold. It is pretty smooth as i applied it on. Some lipstick, when you apply them on kinda clunks up. I do like this lipstick so YAY!. It truly is a matte lipstick, no sheerness to it.

Matte Lipstick  $4.89

Name of the color lipstick i got

Swatch i did for it.

...::Stay Matte but Not Flat Liquid Foundation::...
What can i say about the "Stay Matte but Not Flat" Liquid Foundation. Pros didn't irritate my skin at all, and making it worse. Also it was a perfect tone for my skin color. Usually its hard to find a liquid foundation that is my skin tone. Im an olive, and i hate being an olive. I always end up having to mix, or just find a foundation a little lighter, and get a powdered foundation a bit darker so it evens out. So that's a good thing, but cons it was heavy as i was applying it on, and i didn't like that at all. I had to apply twice all over to get a better coverage, since the first time i applied it over my face. It was kind of translucent. That's all I really got to say about this product. Not so crazy about it, but the fact it match my skin perfectly, and didn't cause any irritation to my skin and my skin is super sensitive as well.

SMF02 Nude Nu $6.09

...::HD Studio Powdered Foundation!::...
 After, I have to say 5 hrs into wearing the product. I started to feel the oils around my nose and the T area of my four head. Also where my skin was starting to shine as well, but not so much as usual. Thus i still had to do a retouch. I have combo skin. Even though there were cons for me. They did have some pros as well. Most powdered foundation I used and have tried, really made my face looked caked up. Yet this product, I had no issues what so ever. It didn't make my face look cakey at all. Also yes it seriously does feel like silk on skin Not only that, but its the perfect tone for my skin. Normally other powered foundation is either to dark or a little to light, this was just right, so bonus!. The powder foundation feels incredibly smooth on my skin, I will say that. I do like this product very much. Beats all my other powdered foundation I ever used, But I don't quit Love the product either. As of right now I have mix feelings about the HD Studio powder foundation. Oh yes I almost forgot, the weight of the product it self, is kind of heavy. As to the ones i already own are more light weight. Probably cause it is bigger then some of my other ones. So that could be the reason.

$8.09

It's as big as my palm could grasp. 

SMP 07 Warm Beige

Showing how much there really is, its a decent amount.

This was right after i dolled up using the liquid and powdered foundation and the lipstick

I took a picture using my lap top to show what time I finished putting everything on.

After throughout the day, Around 10 o'clock pm I forgot to take a picture to show the time for after. >_<

REMINDER: Every product I have and will be using, when I talk about them. It my opinion to how it works for me personally, cause I know everyone isn't all the same. The product might work for you all differently, then it does me so keep that in mind. I was unsure if i should spend my money on getting these products to try out. Yet I don't regret it, I love makeup and i love NYX cosmetic products. Im not rich, im just a girl with passion, hopes, and dreams like everyone else. So when it comes to spending i always make sure I have a budget. Also regardless some of these product that doesn't make me go gaga over with, I will try to find different ways for you guys and myself included to make it better, and worth having. Like I said i will TRY, can't promise anything, but I love experimenting, and seeing the outcomes of it from before. Alright loves take care. BTW its almost Halloween!.. 

Don't Just Talk the Talk Just DO IT!

Hello loves. I hope everything is all swell with you. At this very moment I have a massive headache, and my stomach hurts so much. I know it maybe a little TMI; but ugh i drank this half green tea and half coconut water drink, I threw up it was so nasty. Yet it got me real sick... My head was spinning for like the longest, now its just the after affect Im feeling. Well anyways I went to Save Mart, and got me some new NYX products. I was going to get more products, but 1. I was on a budget 2. They didn't have the HD Liquid Foundation in my skin tone, there were none left. >_< 3. I was a little over my budget and had to put some back. I wanted to cry, then I realize I can always get it next time. So no biggy, sort of -_- Well I'm excited to share my thoughts on these products. They are not completely and fresh on the market, but I never tried them, and probably some of you out there never tired these product out either. I've been holding back, well slacking more likely on doing swatches and first impressions and nor reviews, and daily likes, and must have products. So from now on Im going to set a deadline for everything now. Some people have been waiting patiently for me, and I am very sorry. Im so embarrasses I suck!.. ugh!... Well I hope ya'll been keeping in tune with me. I will have the blog about the NYX products I got, before tomorrow night. I swear I will. I hope every ones weekend was a lot of fun. I know some people were celebrating Halloween early all dressed up. Unfortunately I again will not be dressed up in a costume this year.. WAH!!! I suck Major goshh!!!! >_<

Love Abuse

I've been noticing everytime a guy would use the word "love" to a girl, they go bananas for the guy. Its like that's the magic word to a girl... Then again you must be dumb to believe the guy. Not every guy you talk to gonna love you just like that. Ugh! Dummies. When they say they wanna make love to you, its just f***'n no real connection, just them doing a little more work. Making sure you think they trying to make love to you, when they're really not. Guys become wiser, while girls just become vulnerable and desperate for some source of affections and attention. Guys know that, and they will take advantage of that. You can say both party wins, but girls are very attached and emotional beings. Then again everything goes both ways. Well regardless who the victims are because someone wanna abuse the true meaning of love and what it really is. I'm just saying be careful, don't hurt others unless you wanna be hurt the same way, when it comes to you when your ready or finding someone who might actually means something special to you. Karma truly is a B****!!!!... Those of you who are on the opposite side, protect yourself and your heart. My words my advice. Stay true to your heart, its what beats inside you, and keeps you living. Well good night world sweet dreams... Mwahs!!!! Many love from this pretty little Asian- Soka!... <3!

Joey Diamond!

OMG I got a problem lolz.. i can't seem to stop watching this video Joey just posted up on fb.. OMG OMG he soo cute!!!.. & his voice holy crap.. Ugh!!!. Man I hope someday one day I will find someone as gorgeous and talented as him.... My heart melts for him every time i listen to him sing. What a geek, Im being right now..

Neyo- Because of you (Joey Diamond)

Blaming Facebook!!!!!

Supposedly Facebook is "EVIL". It crushes peoples relationship, friendship, things getting leaked out, and so forth.. Like HELLO!!!!!! Whatever you post on fb, makes it every ones business, and what you decide to not put up on fb is all your business. Uh! :/ I thought that was pretty clear, doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure that out.. -_- If you really wanna vent on fb, and don't want anyone to see it, its called private, why else was it made for? Sheshh.. Like example, the person who invented turning signals, made it so that the car behind you know where your going to turn. You know so you don't get hit, don't be mad if your "baby" got hurt. Your the idiot who didn't use it, it was invented for a reason and why it still exist.. Im just saying. Facebook doesn't ruin anything, its YOU who is ruining everything for yourself..  It's all about the ACTION!!!... True Story too.. Yup!!!.. I just never understand why people never got that.. Its like they hate their life so bad they go and blame it on a social network.. Thats so childish, and so.. wrong!.. Man this generation. Normally people point fingers at other people, but now a day Facebook is getting the finger pointed to. SMH!!!.. People are starting to run out of ideas to point fingers to, it should be themselves really. Well.. had to get that out of my chest haha.. Its Friday like OMG thank goodness. No work today for me, and its absolutely chilly outside. Yet so very lovely.. I hope everyone enjoy their day. Have a Fan-Freak'n-Tastic Friday Loves.. Be Smart, Be Safe, & make very Wise Decisions. Love ya'll MWAHS!!!!.. Your Pretty Little Asian- Soka!

I just love messing around with my editing tools :) ^_^

I'll Save You Music Video DaBoiGee Ft. Yo Bull Pnut

So as many of you don't know this, I have many friends who are getting and or is in the entertainment business. I just want to say Gee, seeing how far you came, especially your videos, the actors and actresses, locations of the video definitely has, progressed. Even the quality had improved significantly. Props to George CEO of TWC Production, who I hope to be working with sometime soon, with my photos. Though in the real world you wont get all good feed backs. All I have to say in my own very opinion, is video just had a bit way to much movement, like the angles just keep changing so fast. Sorry I get headaches easily haha.. Also the main actress, could work on her acting more. Beside that the video it self wasn't bad, and i absolutely enjoyed the music, and what its saying. Sometime i feel people are more focused on the actual video and not the actual lyrics. Yet, but not least OMG, thank you for making the video about the music it self. Cause some songs I'll like it or even love it and could picture how the video would be; then when i finally do see the video, it ends up being something totally different and that it doesn't even go with the music. I love the fact there isn't so much to the video, but yet I truly enjoy it. Good work. Keep it coming, and keep your dreams going. Don't ever stop. Take every constructive criticism, and always improve.

Here is the link to the video- I'll Save You.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uvbbAS89_iM

Good Day World!!!

Its so gorgeous out ugh!!!!.. i think i might take a walk around the city today. Every time I think of good weathers, with beautiful blue skies, white puffy clouds, and birds are chirping. It just takes me back to the good old times when i was younger. I'm blessed to feel that all over again today. Being a live is truly a great and blessed thing. I never really appreciated being a live and in this world. Regardless of whats going on right now, like government being shut down, and crime rates raising.  Five yrs ago when i was just 16, I hated everything and everyone. I truly felt like the world was against me and just wanted me dead, so everyone can move and be happy with their lives. I lost a few friends, but not least respect from my oldest brother. My brother and i were so close and best of friends. My life was so good, until i hit that stage in my life where i just can't seem to do anything right and always disappointing people including ME!..  I tried committing suicide, and almost succeed, but it was so painful i couldn't deal. Now I just try to enjoy everything i got, and what is in my life.. I'm still thankful to have my family still be with me, and even my oldest brother still talking to me. Though things wont be the same between us, but i know he loves me. As long as i know and know that he knows that's all that matters,. So yea everyone appreciate being in this world even if it feels as though the world is against you. Always try to make your life beautiful in this awful world. That's what keeps the world going.. Be Bright, be Unique, Be Amazing, Stay true, Stay pure! We don't have a lot of that going around. So be among the odds. Have a Terrific Tuesday everyone Mwahs!!!... <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3!!!

Whats up with Me?!

Aloha Bloggers and blog readers.. Recently my life have had crashed. I lost a 5+ yr Relationship. Yet honestly Im so happy I was let go, cause I don't know if i could have done it myself. Well i have a couple times, but could never went though with it. Four months as passed, and im feeling great, being single FINALLY 21 years old My birthday was On October 9th. I have dreams and goals that was kept and put away. Now Im just slowly trying to get my life back together and just concentrate on myself, and my dreams. Which by the ways is to be a fantastic Makeup Artist and to become a Model. Freelance wise on both parts. I've been slacking off while being in a relationship, plus i let myself go a lot gained 30+ lbs, but now im losing it and i feel so much better about myself. Not 100% though never will probably, but thats just the human nature of me, and in us all. Anyways, for those who do view my blogs and actually takes the time to read them. I appreciate you, thank you!.. Im actually gonna TRY my very best, to keep up on here. I mean its a blog for a reason. I be blogging up Facebook, when everything i post on FB should be on here. I will definitely be on here more rather then facebook. Just blog about me, the positive vibe, and energy I've been getting. Maybe some of my inspirational word or life might help you and others. I don't know, im no physic nor am I the beast on grammar. Im no English teacher, but ill try by best. So hopefully i get more viewers hopefully followers on here. For just things i post about my self and just motivations, and I hope my viewers can relate to it. Who knows maybe pick up conversation and even talk about the things on my mind, and what goes around with me. Who knows you guys can be a big part to my life. Even my future maybe. Who really knows. Well that is all for now. Bless you all for today, tomorrow, and everyday to come. Mwahs!!!!.. Until next time. :) <3!

Happy 48th Birthday!

Happy 48th Birthday Bah! (Dad in Cambodian).
Today just isn't any other day its my fathers 48th Birthday. Starting of last year me and my little 14 year old sister, talked about celebrating his birthday. Even though he isn't here with us, he is with us in spirit. Last i year, I made him cupcakes and lit his candles, then blew it out. Also got him a card. This year since i am broke, I decided to light some candles and write him a letter. Then i burned the letter into ashes, and let it outside so mother nature can blow it his way. I miss him deeply. Im always going to be his little girl. Khoun Nuk Bah, I love You Daddy!.... This year will be 9 years without him. I always have so much questions and ifs.

Diet Blog Week 3 Day 19

Hey everyone i haven posted any blogs for week 2. I got the flew and possibly food poisoning from eating mozzarella string cheese. Never again, I learned my lesson lolz.. But anyways i actually lost 1 lbs more then what Im suppose to lose. Like I said im trying to diet in a more healthier manner, I guess one extra lbs can't hurt. Though since from being sick my diet was off a bit, for a couple of days. All i did was sleep and drink hot tea, and ate Babah (Cambodian word for Rice and pork soup). As simple as it is, Babah really does the trick. I'll even have the recipe for you all down below, if your ever interested. Not only do you eat it when your sick, but can you pretty much eat it whenever you want to.

As of February 1, 2013!

Weighing @: 153lbs
Chest: 37"
Waist:33"
Hips: 41"
Body Fat: 35.9%
BMI: 27.2 kg
Waist to Height Ratio: 0.52
Lean Body Mass: 98.1lb

Total Lost:

Weight: 7lbs

Chest: 0"

Waist: 1"

Hips: 0.5"

Body Fat: 1.2%

BMI: 1.2 kg

W-To-H Ratio: 0.02

Lean Body Mass: 2.6lb

Goal for the week: lose 2lbs

BaBah (Rice and Pork Soup)!

Sorry for not posting the recipes for this. Didn't have much time on my hands... So I've looked and try to find the best video, for you guys to try this recipe out. The link is below. Again mainly for when sick, But if you like it so much you can make it whenever. Enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A42htIdzKdQ

Diet Blog Day 2

I actually started working out yesterday. I toke some photos the day before, for the before and after pictures. I must say boy did i really let myself go. I would blog day to day of what im cooking, workout routine and so forth. But I think its best to just do it week by week. So slowly I can see my progress. Anyways I did alot of research asked alot of question from my friends who lost a great amount of weight. Im excited for this change to happen. I need to really start bettering myself, and health. My Journey is starting out okay, i just need to get used to my new schedule and my diet. In 88 days from now my goal is to lose from 18-20 lbs, by Cambodian New years. Then after Another 10-15 lbs by summer.Wish we luck on this well and healthy Journey. Im so determined. I will post some tips I learned foods, and products along the way. (; So please feel free to keep an eye out, during my Journey.

As of January 14, 2013:

Weighing @: 160lbs

Height: 5' 3"

Chest: 37"

Waist: 34"

Hips 41.5"

Body Fat: 37.1%

BMI: 28.4 kg

Waist to Height Ratio: 0.54

Lean Body Mass: 100.7lb

Want to figure out you body fat? This is the site I went to.

http://www.scientificpsychic.com/fitness/diet.html

Goal for the week: Lose 2-3 lbs. 

Today, what I made for breakfast was Baked Egg with Spinach and Tomatoes I just looked at different sites and winged its actually really good:  

Recipe:

Ingredient:

Bag of Spinach, Eggs (However much you want to make I prefer 4), Tomatoes chopped.

Step by Step:

Preheat oven to 390 f degree 

Boil water, put a handful amount of spinach in a colander, pore boiling water over spinach to wilt the leaves. In a bowl put in the chopped tomatoes, mix with chili powder, seasoning (salt and peppers). Then in a  ovenproof  dish, put in the spinach and tomatoes, making a small center and crack the egg in it. Bake for 12-15 min. Or to your desire. As for me i didn't have a ovenproof dish. So I used my cupcake pan regular size, and put foils inside of it and sprayed olive oil so the egg wont stick on to the foil. After you can sprinkle a bit of salt and pepper (option). Enjoy!

Nutrition:
114 cal. 9g protein, 3g carb, 2g fibre