A Cup Of Tea

As hard as it may seem, but just know there are some good people out there and who will walk into your life. Don't give up on the good, and expect nothing but the bad. Or else that is all you will b receiving. Honestly how can you want something good in life, yet your so scared of the fear of having something bad. Ying and yang, you can't run away from the bad, the good things in life will come to you, and balance with the bad. Its life, you can't always expect everything to come at you so easily like a cup of tea, and get the better things, without having to deal with some worse of things. That's just how it is. Life isn't fair, but doesn't mean it stops you from having anything good. Well Have a Thriller Thursday until next time.. Many love from your pretty little Asian, Soka MWAHS!!! Take care everyone.. 

By the way. The trees behind my house is absolutely gorgeous.. One of the few things I love about the Fall season.

Sometimes looking at views like this, I already have some of the Finer things in life. ^_^

What does insecurity got to do with it?

I never really had insecurities. Its just that in this day and age, some people make it really difficult to be really trusted. I mean come on can you fully trust someone in a manner of a yr. Some of us don't have any insecurity and low self esteem. Its the matter of fact that people in this world lie so much, and have many tricks. Plus love doesn't all happen over night. I have seen so many people fall in and out of "love" many times while I was in that 5 years relationship. I have seen some people I personally know running games, playing n messing around with good peoples heart. I can really care less or have the needs to ask for the password or snoop into a spouse things, I'd rather have him come to me honestly and openly without the pressure of me saying so. If he does then he is truly genuine. You can't force trust, force for love to happen from your spouse, for you. Cause during the mean time your spouse is going to have doubts about you questions and concerns. Its called being human, insecurity has nothing to do with it. Its all about getting to know you, your actions committing to things you tell your spouse. Pretty much all about your action basically, is what I'm saying. Also the fact who cares if you say your not like the rest. We have to determine that on our own. It truly isn't about insecurity well to me and others who relates, its all about the time and building up to get to that trust for you. If you done something wrong while being in that relationship with your spouse, you really think they can just get over it just like that. Surprisingly lucky enough, that they are even with you to give you another shot. But the shot of trusting you again wont be so easily. Thats your fault, you can't blame your spouse for your actions, then expect everything to be the way they were before.

Good Morning to Hopes, Dreams, Success, & Accomplishments

OMG I can't believe Im up. well I was awake earlier. :) But still, though I am yawning a lot right about now. Its absolutely gorgeous out.. I need to get myself some new sports bra, so I can start jogging again. Ugh! I think I lost some of my booty!!! Ooohhhh Nooo, that must never happen. DANG!... So yea some workout are in order for me right now. Still got this bingo wings yuk! gotta some arm workout as well as abs too. I want to look good for summer of 2014. Plus this really amazing guy im talking to, is starting to workout again. But he already looks gorgeous, but he sure isn't physically there with his body lolz. Awe!.. Neither am I so yeah.. By the way my headache is almost gone, I can still feel it just a bit. So I will be taking it easy again today. My well being is definitely important, this small town girl got some big dreams to accomplish. Actually the guy that i am talking to, he sort of have been inspiring me, keeping my head up and go catch my dreams. This guy, he's so different from most guys I ever met. He's all about succeeding, accomplishing things, getting things done, though he is lagging a bit on certain things, but don't we all ^_^ Well anyways. I'm truly grateful to have someone like him, just in general in my life. I don't really have much friends and what not, who are like that. Except those who are trying to get into the entertainment world, yet some bad side of them they are broke, and some are lazy, all about the sex, and parties. Not my cup of tea. All I have to say to all those who are going somewhere, and doing big things, or are even in the process. Keep at it, keep it up. if there is no one to encourage you, encourage yourself, cause that's who going to be with you at all times. Even when your journey has a bump in the road, or something might have stopped you for a little. Never let that dream of yours go and continue to it as soon as you get right back up on your feet. Some people are to comfortable working minimum jobs, factory jobs, settling down, married, kids, and haven't even tried to go after their dreams. Im not saying thats a bad thing, especially if they truly are happy with that life. Im just saying that's not me, I don't want that life just yet. When i was in a relationship, yeah all i wanted was a comfy life i'll admit, like my friends and family. Then when I see my other friends succeeding traveling, and getting things they want. Oh man I snapped out and was like I want that life before settling into anything. I want to chase my dreams and accomplish it. Make a good living, so one day I can give it all to my kids. Not having to over work myself as Im aging. Well anyways have a Terrific Tuesday everyone mwahs!!!!!..  Remember dreams don't die, and success never stops. Its up to you on what you want to do, and go with your life.

My NYX Products Review/First impression

First I just want to say that I love the fact all of the NYX product that I have purchased are Cruelty Free & the Color Lip Balm and Matte Lipstick are Hypoallergenic.


...:: Color Lip Balm::...
OMG I love this color lip balm, truly does keep you lips moist, after trying on the lip stick. That it dried up my lips, I tried the lip balm after and it kept it moist my lips from drying up. I decided to go for a neutral nude tone, cause as much as i love to have some color on my lips, im a simple gal. Plus neutral nude color goes with everything. So yes i do recommend this product all the way, especially if your lips does chap up quickly during this kind of weather. Also it smell really amazing. Each smell is different. But they all smell like a fruit, and me i love the sweet smell of fruits. :)

CLB07 Spasibo $3.09

Swatch 

...::Matte Lipstick::...
Besides the fact I absolutely love the color, it did stay on for quit awhile i have to say 4 hrs. before it completely came off. Not so bad you would say after eating and drinking water. Also it was moist I will say that, but ended up drying my lips after awhile. I don't know if it could just be the weather, since my lips tend to try quicker during the cold. It is pretty smooth as i applied it on. Some lipstick, when you apply them on kinda clunks up. I do like this lipstick so YAY!. It truly is a matte lipstick, no sheerness to it.

Matte Lipstick  $4.89

Name of the color lipstick i got

Swatch i did for it.

...::Stay Matte but Not Flat Liquid Foundation::...
What can i say about the "Stay Matte but Not Flat" Liquid Foundation. Pros didn't irritate my skin at all, and making it worse. Also it was a perfect tone for my skin color. Usually its hard to find a liquid foundation that is my skin tone. Im an olive, and i hate being an olive. I always end up having to mix, or just find a foundation a little lighter, and get a powdered foundation a bit darker so it evens out. So that's a good thing, but cons it was heavy as i was applying it on, and i didn't like that at all. I had to apply twice all over to get a better coverage, since the first time i applied it over my face. It was kind of translucent. That's all I really got to say about this product. Not so crazy about it, but the fact it match my skin perfectly, and didn't cause any irritation to my skin and my skin is super sensitive as well.

SMF02 Nude Nu $6.09

...::HD Studio Powdered Foundation!::...
 After, I have to say 5 hrs into wearing the product. I started to feel the oils around my nose and the T area of my four head. Also where my skin was starting to shine as well, but not so much as usual. Thus i still had to do a retouch. I have combo skin. Even though there were cons for me. They did have some pros as well. Most powdered foundation I used and have tried, really made my face looked caked up. Yet this product, I had no issues what so ever. It didn't make my face look cakey at all. Also yes it seriously does feel like silk on skin Not only that, but its the perfect tone for my skin. Normally other powered foundation is either to dark or a little to light, this was just right, so bonus!. The powder foundation feels incredibly smooth on my skin, I will say that. I do like this product very much. Beats all my other powdered foundation I ever used, But I don't quit Love the product either. As of right now I have mix feelings about the HD Studio powder foundation. Oh yes I almost forgot, the weight of the product it self, is kind of heavy. As to the ones i already own are more light weight. Probably cause it is bigger then some of my other ones. So that could be the reason.

$8.09

It's as big as my palm could grasp. 

SMP 07 Warm Beige

Showing how much there really is, its a decent amount.

This was right after i dolled up using the liquid and powdered foundation and the lipstick

I took a picture using my lap top to show what time I finished putting everything on.

After throughout the day, Around 10 o'clock pm I forgot to take a picture to show the time for after. >_<

REMINDER: Every product I have and will be using, when I talk about them. It my opinion to how it works for me personally, cause I know everyone isn't all the same. The product might work for you all differently, then it does me so keep that in mind. I was unsure if i should spend my money on getting these products to try out. Yet I don't regret it, I love makeup and i love NYX cosmetic products. Im not rich, im just a girl with passion, hopes, and dreams like everyone else. So when it comes to spending i always make sure I have a budget. Also regardless some of these product that doesn't make me go gaga over with, I will try to find different ways for you guys and myself included to make it better, and worth having. Like I said i will TRY, can't promise anything, but I love experimenting, and seeing the outcomes of it from before. Alright loves take care. BTW its almost Halloween!.. 

Don't Just Talk the Talk Just DO IT!

Hello loves. I hope everything is all swell with you. At this very moment I have a massive headache, and my stomach hurts so much. I know it maybe a little TMI; but ugh i drank this half green tea and half coconut water drink, I threw up it was so nasty. Yet it got me real sick... My head was spinning for like the longest, now its just the after affect Im feeling. Well anyways I went to Save Mart, and got me some new NYX products. I was going to get more products, but 1. I was on a budget 2. They didn't have the HD Liquid Foundation in my skin tone, there were none left. >_< 3. I was a little over my budget and had to put some back. I wanted to cry, then I realize I can always get it next time. So no biggy, sort of -_- Well I'm excited to share my thoughts on these products. They are not completely and fresh on the market, but I never tried them, and probably some of you out there never tired these product out either. I've been holding back, well slacking more likely on doing swatches and first impressions and nor reviews, and daily likes, and must have products. So from now on Im going to set a deadline for everything now. Some people have been waiting patiently for me, and I am very sorry. Im so embarrasses I suck!.. ugh!... Well I hope ya'll been keeping in tune with me. I will have the blog about the NYX products I got, before tomorrow night. I swear I will. I hope every ones weekend was a lot of fun. I know some people were celebrating Halloween early all dressed up. Unfortunately I again will not be dressed up in a costume this year.. WAH!!! I suck Major goshh!!!! >_<

Love Abuse

I've been noticing everytime a guy would use the word "love" to a girl, they go bananas for the guy. Its like that's the magic word to a girl... Then again you must be dumb to believe the guy. Not every guy you talk to gonna love you just like that. Ugh! Dummies. When they say they wanna make love to you, its just f***'n no real connection, just them doing a little more work. Making sure you think they trying to make love to you, when they're really not. Guys become wiser, while girls just become vulnerable and desperate for some source of affections and attention. Guys know that, and they will take advantage of that. You can say both party wins, but girls are very attached and emotional beings. Then again everything goes both ways. Well regardless who the victims are because someone wanna abuse the true meaning of love and what it really is. I'm just saying be careful, don't hurt others unless you wanna be hurt the same way, when it comes to you when your ready or finding someone who might actually means something special to you. Karma truly is a B****!!!!... Those of you who are on the opposite side, protect yourself and your heart. My words my advice. Stay true to your heart, its what beats inside you, and keeps you living. Well good night world sweet dreams... Mwahs!!!! Many love from this pretty little Asian- Soka!... <3!

Joey Diamond!

OMG I got a problem lolz.. i can't seem to stop watching this video Joey just posted up on fb.. OMG OMG he soo cute!!!.. & his voice holy crap.. Ugh!!!. Man I hope someday one day I will find someone as gorgeous and talented as him.... My heart melts for him every time i listen to him sing. What a geek, Im being right now..

Neyo- Because of you (Joey Diamond)